Cutest Husband Ever...

I have the best husband. He really made my day when this little cutie showed up on my doorstep today :) I have been wanting an ipod shuffle but I didn't want to spend money on myself. On the back he had it engraved. it says "Come Waste Your Time With Me" Waste- Phish

Don't want to be an actor pretending on the stage
Don't want to be a writer with my thoughts out on the page
Don't want to be a painter 'cause everyone comes to look
Don't want to be anything where my life's an open book

A dream it's true
But I'd see it through
If I could be
Wasting my time with you

Don't want to be a farmer working in the sun
Don't want to be an outlaw always on the run
Don't want to be a climber reaching for the top
Don't want to be anything where I don't know when to stop

A dream it's true
But I'd see it through
If I could be
Wasting my time with you

So if I'm inside your head
Don't believe what you might have read
You'll see what I might have said
To hear

Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me

So if I'm inside your head
Don't believe what you might have read
You'll see what I might have said
To hear

Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me
Come waste your time with me

Sarah Palin

I know I said I didn't get into political conversations but I'm really wound up tonight so I think I will.

I've read and listened to a lot of people's opinions about Sarah Palin. She is obviously getting a very positive attention from a lot of people. However I'm finding it really sad at the negative attention she is getting. Its politics I know that comes with negative stuff but come one this isn't even about her career. The negative feedback is about her personal life. Its frustrating.

I was in the book store. A group of mothers were sitting around watching their kids play in the little play area. Standing right next to it I of course could hear their entire conversation. Three ladies knew each other and then asked the lady standing beside me if she could handle being a mother and VP. The girl was like ooh no I only have two and couldn't handle it. I don't know how she thinks she can do it with five. Another lady pooped off ooh she'll just get a nanny blah blah blah.

Here is what I don't understand... Yes she is a mother of five. Yes her personal life obviously leaves her very busy. Yes she has an infant. Yes the infant has down syndrome. However if she were male NONE of this would be an issue. Nobody has bashed Obama for having his girls on the campaign trail. Nobody has bashed him for saying that if him and his wife are not able to take care of the girls that their grandmother does. But since she is female her taking a high powered role in this country makes her less of a parent. Why can a man spend that much time away from home and still be a good parent but a woman can't? They've already said her husband took a leave from his job that he probably won't go back to help take care of the kids. I can not imagine the hours she'll put in as VP but i also think there are a lot of females who put those kind of hours in with any other job. (Doctors, nurses, lawyers, etc etc etc) Are those women less of a mother than me? I'm a SAHM so I spend every second with my kids but I don't see how that would make me a better mother. It just blows my mind that any woman could fault another woman for taking on this role. Or any other job for that matter.

Sure if you don't agree with her politics then don't vote for her. Sure if you disagree with the way she has ran her career then by all means don't like her. But to trash her simply because she is a mother is just ridiculous. This isn't the Donna Reed life anymore... Women can have a life outside of their home!!!

And just as a quick note if I hear one more person make a comment about McCain dying in the next four years I'm going to go off on them. Seriously, thats horrible to think about someone. I don't think anybody would like to hear their lives discussed on national tv and how likely it is that they'll die soon! So get over it. The man has went through hell and survived it.. I don't think the next four years are going to be much of a problem!

My First Time Voting

Now I don't typically get into political discussions and for the most part its because everybody is out to change my views. I don't mind listening to what people believe but I do get mad when they feel the need to change my mind. So I just stay out of it.

This is the first time I've admited this publically. I have never voted. In fact I am just now registering to vote. Pretty sad for an American to admit at my age and even sader I am sure for a military wife to admit. However I have had many reasons to not voting.. Most of all I didn't feel educated enough. Its not that I haven't cared its because I have never felt like I knew enough to cast a vote on something so important. And I'm sure some of that was out of being too lazy to figure it all out. Most of all its because everybody I would ask about it would be one sided so I didnt feel like I was learning anything at all.

So this year will be my very first vote. And I am pretty excited about that. I have paid close attention to everything going on. I have been researching and I really think I'm figuring out more than I ever knew before. I still don't get most things but I'm working on it.

I will proudly be casting my vote for McCain and Palin. :)

A little time...

I have a little time for an update. Today didn't start off so well. Makennah refused to get out of bed.. she didnt even wake up when I was telling her it was time to go to daycare. Usually that has her jumping out of bed. This the very first time she has ever acted that way so I figured sleep was a must. So I let her sleep in and took her to June's two hours late. I decided to lay back down too and that only gave me a headache :(

Not much longer and my husband will be home. I am more than excited. We are planning a little vacation. Taking the girls to Sesame Place and some things around there. There is tons that we can do. Not sure what all we'll end up doing just yet but I'll just be excited to get out of IN for awhile. Plus we get to see some awesome friends :)

I have been a little sad this past week. Nothing horrible but the littlest things makes me emotional. My dog ruined a bunch of priceless items, looking at baby things that I'm giving away, talking to my husband, and just those sorts of things. Patrick and I have been having some of the best conversations lately and I just can't help but get excited. I'm going to have my best friend home again. My world will be one even if it is just for two weeks. I'm really teary eyed just thinking about it. The thought of seeing Makennah's reaction to her daddy picking her up from daycare is something I have been the most excited for. I'm praying that M.E. realizes who daddy is and isn't scared. She is so tiny so any reaction is to be expected. She loves his pictures and seeing him online so I am sure it won't take long for her to warm up.

So close :)

So Proud :)

I am so proud of Patrick. On a normal day I am proud of the way he serves his country. I am certainly proud of him for being the amazing father that he is but today I'm over whelmed with pride.

He volunteered to go on this deployment. Some people may call it selfish to leave his kids like that but I see it as something amazing. Its not selfish. Its people like him and the several others I know how volunteered who keep this country safe. Its also people like him who make it possible for others to stay home.

Now he told me that he volunteered for even more. He is going to be part of a group who is going to be going out to the villages and talking to their leaders. Finding out what each village needs and then working on a solution.

Once again, this is not something he had to do. He could probably do a lot of stuff in that spare time but probably nothing this great. I am so excited that my kids will be able to some day say "this is what my dad for that village or this is what my dad helped to do for another village" Iraqi lives will be personally changed by my husband and by the men who volunteered with him. Its a great feeling to know my husband is doing so much. It makes this year apart from him worth while. It is stressful and it sucks to be away from him but how often can people say "My husband changed so many lives and I'm proud to support that!"

Sadly, I am sure my kids will grow up hearing the negative sides of this war. How many lives have been lost, how people were against it, who felt were over there for wrong reasons, who thinks this, and who thinks that. Its awesome that my kids will have a chance to fight back with very positive sides of this war. I hate how this country feeds on the negative instead of looking for the positive in situations.

Ok enough rambling for today. I could get on a soap box and really go on about this sort of stuff but I choose to keep it on a positive note. My husband Rocks :)

Let me go home...

During this deployment Patrick and I are trying to figure out just where our home will be. I feel like him and I have never actually had a chance to settle in and call a place "our home." Its heartbreaking to think about. He is working hard not only on his missions but working even harder to find jobs. Again that is something I feel like we do all the time. Job searching. He still has his civilian job to come home to but its not what he really enjoys. Its not even in a location that either of us would like to live. After four years of marriage I'd just like to be able to feel settled. I want to be out of this town. I would rather be completely out of this state. Some where that its just Patrick, myself, and the girls. Where the four of us only have each other to depend on. To grow as a family, to work, to make new friends, and to start a "life"

So where ooh where is this life going to be--

Here Possibly?

Makennah still asks all the time if she can move to GA and be a beach bum :) I can not wait till he finds the job he wants. I can not wait till i can plan the location of our move. And even more so I can not wait to get my own life started.... School, job, or whatever I can find to get into :)

Ahh Fun Day

Went to the zoo today. Fun was had by all. Seen some fun animals. Let the kids get wet. Wore them out and a two hour nap followed. Nice :)

This guy Rocks-

Check Him Out--- Some older blogs are from my husband's unit :)

http://www.in-iraq.org/

Wow- Again I suck at this blogging stuff.

I decided to read some blogs that I hadn't read for awhile and I realized that it had been awhile since I had blogged. I'm going to make it a point to write more often.

Its already June! Where has this year gone?

Madeline is a year old already. My sweetest baby is a "toddler" now. She said her first words the other day. While most parents believe a child's first words are amazing, I think Madeline's was the very best. She is a genius child who must have known her daddy needed something special that day. (Ok maybe genius is a bit much but I'm her mama, i can go over the top on how i describe her!) Patrick called and as I handed her the phone I said "Say hi to daddy" Her very first words "Hi dad!" Like such a big girl. It was truly amazing and I get a little teary just thinking about it.

Makennah is such a great little girl. She loves learning and figuring everything out. From who all is her family (and how they are family) to figuring out how to get places to her letters and reading. Her imagination is growing and she is always coming up with some sort of game to play.

Patrick has been in Iraq awhile now. He is doing so well. I can not describe how proud of him I am. He certainly is an amazing man. The way he is handling this deployment is awesome. His strength is what helps keep me going. Even if he doesn't know it, he is what keeps me going through everything. It doesn't matter if he is here or not- I know that he is behind me every step of the way. I love him. :)

Me- There isn't much to update. I started filling out financial aid papers and I am planning to go back to school this fall. I have several emotions. I am scared. I haven't been in school for years. I am excited. I have been wanting something of my own. I am nervous. I am happy. I am soo many things. Now to figure out a plan--- What do I want to do with life? :)

So thats us in a nutshell... I'll be keeping up with this from now on :)

Best Hour and 15 mins of my day!

Patrick called today! The first half hour was a little slow and not much got talked about. A cranky baby makes it hard to talk to anybody. Then you have a phone that is cutting in and out. A husband who is tired and not saying much. Doesn't make for a good half hour.

Then he calls me back.. and gets 45 minutes on the phone. I just got the baby to sleep. He seemed to have perked up. And it was an awesome phone call.

Isn't it funny how one phone call can make a world of difference on a bad day :)


I love my husband :)

So I come to realize.. I suck at this blogging stuff..

I never update. Its been almost two months since my last blog. Whats going on with that?!? However now that I have the internet back I will try to keep up..

So lets see here: Whats going on in life?

There is the small detail about my husband being in Iraq. Its been a week now. Went outside the wire for the first time on Thursday. Thanks to some family drama, we didn't get a chance to talk about that much. He hasn't called since then but I am guessing if he had to go out anymore it hasn't gotten any easier?

My kiddos are both going through a strange phase. Makennah is whiney. Ooh my some days I feel like I am going to lose my sanity from her whines. Madeline wakes up crying all the time now. Thank goodness it has slowed down but there for about a week it was every night. Again I thought I'd lose my sanity. Mama Needs her sleep!

As for me, still bored. However I have become a bad mom lately. (Maybe i shouldn't confess this) I let the toys lay on the floor all day yesterday, last night, and today. I did pick them up finally before bed. I haven't read a book to my kids in two days (ahh we typically read a lot) and I've set on the computer looking up Army post after Army post. Emailing friends about army post and asking other friends about the army post they've lived on or been to. Its become a sickness. I have months before there will even be a move or the option to move so I just need to leave it alone.

I did get a little productive today and clean out a few things from the living room. Making room to exercise. That too I slacked on. AKA not even started at all. I have kept to my diet this week. Very well.

Ok so I do not want this to get crazy long because crazy long gets boring.

I miss you the most when...

This is to my husband sorta.. but since he can't read it. I'm just using it to vent a little.

I've learned so much from this deployment already. I thought I had learned a lot before but this time I think I'm going to be a whole new wife when he comes home. I really appreciate the small things he does a lot more now that he isn't home to do them. I know he is amazing but its at those very moments where you want to break down that you realize.. Wow if only he were home it wouldn't be so hard. Thats when it all hits you.. I sometimes took for granted that he was here so much and he probably did more than I gave him credit for.

I miss him like crazy.. but there are times where I really miss him. Where I really need him home...

So here it go... I miss you the most when..

*The girls wake up all too early after a late night. You're not there to let me sleep in.

* When the girls are sick and cranky. You're not there to take them off my hands for a few minutes

* I miss you most when I roll over at night and your side of the bed is empty. My favorite spot in the world is not there :(

* I miss you most when the dog runs out the door. I have two kids who I refuse to put into a cold car to go find him. But then I sit and worry he may get hurt.. If you were here you can get the idiot :)

* I miss you most when the dishes need to be done and bottles are piled up. (You always did those more anyways lol)

* I miss you at 6pm because that was the time you'd call to say you were coming home from work

* When our little girl shows me her art work from school.. and you're not there to see it with me.

* I'm even starting to miss all the ACUs. And you know how i complained about seeing them!

Each day I think.. Gosh i miss my husband. But there are moments each day that I realize that I really do need him a lot more than I lead on to think. I'm going to make it through this deployment. The girls and I have already made it through an entire month. Were doing great and will continue. Were strong.. You think our soldiers are strong.. Check out the women standing behind them. Were the real backbone of the army :)

Sorry for my venting/crying/ranting... I will do that from time to time. It helps to get it all out!

Finally a real update!

Steph- This is for you ;) haha (Hey.. what ever happened to your Dr Peper. heh, you know I'm kidding. You'll laugh about it some day *wink*)


So I'm finally updating... Its been a month and some odd days so its probably time. Patrick has been gone 4 weeks. Its been a really long four weeks but we are surviving. He is doing really well. His training seems to be going great. He has had some pretty big compliments and seems to be building his confidence. He is working well with his crew and over all seems to in good spirits. I'm so proud of him. He'll tell me something that great that happens and I almost cry because I am so proud.

We miss him terribly and I'm sure we'll have moments where we'll want him home. But I think were going to survive just fine. I'm so proud of Makennah. I almost think she is stronger than myself. Patrick and I both believe that the girls need to grow up strong. They need to grow up believing in our military and being proud of Patrick's job. I want my girls to understand all the good that their dad does for this country and I want them as proud as I am.

Makennah is a daddy's girl but seems to be handling things well so far. She talks about him constantly. A few times she has cried but overall she is doing well. She proudly talks about her daddy being with the Army and how in four weeks for her birthday we'll be picking him up for his pass. I know she doesn't completely understand and at this age she probably wont. But she realizes daddy is working hard and that he didnt want to leave her.

Madeline is to little to understand. I show her pictures daily and she still gets so excited to see them. We talk about him all the time and I try to keep him a really big part of her life.

God's Perfect Woman- A Military Wife---

Seen this on a friend's myspace blog.. Thought I'd post it here before I update :)


The good Lord was creating a model for military wives and was into his sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared. She said," Lord, you seem to be having a lot of trouble with this one. What's wrong with the standard model?"

The Lord replied," Have you seen the specs on this order? She has to be completely independent, possess the qualities of both mother and father, be a perfect hostess for four to 40 with an hour notice, run on black coffee, handle every emergency imaginable without a manual, be able to carry on cheerfully, even if she is pregnant and has the flu, and she must have six pair of hands."The angel shook her head. "Six pair of hands? No way!"

The Lord continued. "Don't worry, we will make other military wives to help her. And we will give her an unusually strong heart so it can swell with pride in her husbands achievements, sustain the pain of separation, beat soundly when it is overworked and tired, and be large enough to say, "I understand" when she doesn't and "I love you" regardless."Lord," said the angel, touching his arm gently, "Go to bed and get some rest. You can finish this tomorrow."

"I can't stop now," Said the Lord. "I am so close to creating something unique. Already this model heals herself when she is sick, can put up six unexpected guests for the weekend, wave good-bye to her husband from a pier, a runway or a depot, and understand why it's important that he leave."The angel circled the model of the military wife, looked at itclosely and sighed."It looks fine, but it's too soft."

"She may look soft," replied the Lord, "but she had the strength of a lion. You would not believe what she can endure.

"Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the Lord's creation. "There's a leak," she announced. "Something is wrong with the construction. I'm not surprised that it has cracked. You are trying to put too much into this model."

The Lord appeared offended at the angel's lack of confidence. "What you see is not a leak," he said. "It's a tear.""A tear? What is it there for?" asked the angel.The Lord replied, "It's for joy, sadness, pain, disappointment, loneliness, pride and dedication to all the values that she and her husband hold dear.""You are a genius!" exclaimed the angel.The Lord looked puzzled and replied, "I didn't put it there."